行くぜ GO FOR IT！力出し着るまで NEVER GIVE UP！

IMPORTANT!!!!

2007-04-05T07:27:58Z

Journal Move!
Moving over to je_regret_riens
If you recieve an add from that journal, please accept.
If you believe I've left you out in error, just add the journal and I'll add you back!

Rebby I dare you!

2007-04-05T04:09:41Z

Don't ask, just do. ♥ And anyone else on the flist, if you want a kooky psychoanalysis!

1. You are not alone. You are walking in the woods. With who?
2. You are walking in the woods. You see an animal. What kind of animal is it?
3. What interaction takes place between you and the animal?
4. You walk deeper in the woods. You enter a clearing and before you is your dream house. Describe it.
5. Is your dream house surrounded by a fence?
6. You enter the house. You walk in to the dining room and see the dining room table. What do you see on AND around it?
7. You exit the house and a cup is on the ground, what kind is it?
8. What do you do with the cup?
9. You walk to the edge of the property where you find yourself standing at the edge of a body of water. What kind of body of water is it?
10. How will you cross the water?

So drunk

2007-04-04T22:05:35Z

I am.....so drunk.
Isn't it sad that my mother and I deal with things by drinking?
Am I a bad personage for getting my mother drunk and ordering pizza?

.......

2007-04-04T20:56:01Z

My mom......probably has breast cancer.
Wow.
I can't process that somehow. It's like....ignoring it will make it go away, right?
I hate this.

Well well well.....

2007-04-04T02:29:23Z

So, the same-sex marriage ban was defeated here in Indiana. I was scrolling through the comments in response to the article, and mostly it was cheering. There were a few narrow minded religious pricks on there, but mostly cheering.

And then I found this.

PRAISE GOD!
I am thankful that Christian charity and compassion won out over Pharisee-like judgementalism in this instance.

There is so much good in the worst of us
And so much bad in the best of us
That it doesn't make sense for any of us
To cast judgement on the rest of us

Special thanks to Ken Nordstrom of Lafayette, IN, author of the post I quoted. Bravo.
I don't agree with Christianity. Not in the form that breeds hatred upon hatred.
I've read the bible. And THIS is what it teaches. Why can't more people be like this guy??
I still don't believe in his religion. But I have a HELL of a lot more respect for him than for everybody else thumping their bibles!!!!!

Heee....

2007-04-03T22:20:11Z

So, I'm starting up my studies again. I was reading Buckland's book of Witchcraft, and I got to the part about when you're feeling drained, go sit with your back against a tree. Strange, but....it really DOES work.
On the down side, it's raining, and now I'm cold and soaked.
But I feel BETTER, dammit.

findmagicorange @ 2007-04-03T14:39:00

2007-04-03T18:40:39Z

More photoshoppy goodness trying to put Rebby and I together. :)

And, in more distressing news, I tried to do a rune pull about Rebby and I.

Can anyone interpret that for me? I'm....seeing boojums and I want to double check myself.

findmagicorange @ 2007-04-03T11:53:00

2007-04-03T15:55:17Z

MindMap

headdesk

2007-04-03T03:54:53Z

So I've been listening to the song Rebby recorded for me on repeat all day.
My dad walks in and asks if it's me singing. When I tell him no, he guesses it's Rebby.
And when I grin and tell him he's right and isn't it a WONDERFUL song she's picked out for me, he announces,

"Not only is love blind, it's also tonedeaf!"

.......Thanks, dad.

Rebby, sweetheart, he's an asshat. I think you sing beautifully!!!!

THANK YOU DIANA!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-04-02T22:35:09Z

THANK YOU DIANA!!!!!!!!!

ZOMG the books arrived perfectly, and I hadn't even realized which Rune book that was. I've been scrabbling to get my hands on every rune book I can to replace a book I once had, which I absolutely adored. It had all my notes in it, and it was a good book to begin with.
It got shredded in a fit of religious fervor (don't ask). And lo and behold, that book you sent me.....I hadn't even realized it....is the EXACT book.
Now I just have to go through and rewrite all of my notes in the margins. LOL!

Once again I can't sleep

2007-04-02T05:09:15Z

And once again it's because of that damned dream.
This time, Rebby told me I was too needy and emo, what with having nightmares about her dumping me and getting on LJ to wail about it and whimper for ego pettins. It's over.
So I get up, I go get a cup of tea, and try to sleep again.
I close my eyes and she tells me I'm addicted to RPG's and need to focus on her as a person, and separate her and Sephiroth. It's over.
If tea doesn't work...bust out the vodka. And after a stiff drink, I'm half passed out, I close my eyes, and....
This time she wants to chew me out because we'd agreed to take it slow and I keep rushing at every available opportunity. It's over.
So now, at 1am, I am sitting in my room with my puppus sprawled out in front of my door, going.........da FUH is wrong with me? *headdesk*

findmagicorange @ 2007-04-01T01:39:00

2007-04-01T05:40:36Z

http://news.livejournal.com/97749.html

Wow, I forgot about April Fools. It scared me for a minute.

To the tune of 'Lady of Dreams'

2007-04-01T03:56:34Z

Rebby my sweetheart
The light of my life
When I think of you
It makes me Happy
Wishing that you were here
For me to hold you close
Love
I adore you
Rebby my sweetheart I love
You so much
Only you
Rebby my sweetie you know you are all
You are all
That I desire

Save me a place
In the heart of your hearts
Oh my Rebby you know that I love you
Wishing that you were here
For me to hold you close
Love
I so adore you
Only my Rebby of Dreams
You are my world
The moon and the stars
Only my Rebby of Dreams, sweetheart
You are all
That I desire

Something tells me
This is love that surrounds
Only a fool
Without wisdom can see
Blind as I am
In your Eyes
My Rebby of Dreams
Blind as I am
In your Eyes
My Rebby of Dreams

Dolleh!

2007-03-30T18:48:13Z

I made another doll of me and Rebby! :)

Fiction Challenge!!

2007-03-30T04:38:07Z

Okay, so...I have a fiction challenge for eeeeveryone on the F-list that follows FF7. We know that Mary Sues are awful, so it's time to poke fun at them!!! Take the Mary Sue meme I made, and write a bit of fiction starring your Mary Sue! No length requirements, and the 'sex' can be implied. There are a couple categories for winning, and I =will= be making prizes!

Least Sue-ish Sue
Most 'classic' Sue
Most stereotypes

findmagicorange @ 2007-03-29T23:48:00

2007-03-30T03:49:43Z

I never saw myself as a narrow-minded person before. But I looked over the website that ganimede made about his transition from a female body to a male body and....I've felt like crying all night just because I never understood transgendered people before.

I made a post to queer_ldr, and he was the first to welcome me. His icon was interesting, so I clicked to check out his userinfo. And what I found there.....well, it's made me cry. I looked over his site, and suddenly I don't feel like such an 'open' person anymore.

I =want= to be openminded, mind you all. I just couldn't process something that seemed so foreign to me. And his website, Find your own place in the rainbow laid it all out so simply that I just......=had= to understand it. I know his intent in putting it up was NOT to make people feel bad or narrow-minded, rather to help others like him. But reading over it and looking through the information there.... It suddenly turned the lights on on something I'd never understood before.

So I told him this:

I was looking through your website, and I wanted to say thank you, so much, for putting that up. :) I know I'm a girl, and thankfully got the right body, but I was looking through your site anyway, just to get to know you since you were so kind in welcoming me.
And honestly, I've always been a little weirded out by transgendered people, and confused by the whole thing. Your site made it so clear that (although I know it wasn't your intent) I suddenly felt really narrow-minded and stupid for not understanding before.

I think I may need to take the evening off the internet just to process and let things settle down in my head.

Or not....I've had deepest sender open thinking about how to write this, and I've been pawing through the non-friends-locked entries in his journal, and reading each one tagged with his transition process....
I know, definately totally know, that that is not what I am. I am a girl, I am happy with my girly parts, and my girly parts belong on my body. But......I =understand= now, to the full extent of someone who has not and will not be going through the situation for themselves.

A question about Sexuality

2007-03-29T07:11:26Z

I was clicking about and looking for more communities to join, and I ran across a post by shadowstalker13. It had a very, very interesting question in it, and I'd like to copy her question here.

Out of curiosity, I have a question for you all...

What thing or things make the difference between being bisexual and just being very secure in your own sexuality?

For example, I know heterosexual people who are completely able to hug and kiss (though not passionately kiss) members of the same sex without "freaking." And the same people are able to appreciate the lines, structure or attractiveness of the same sex's body.

So my curiosity abounds. Is it the simple factor of sexual attraction that defines that line? Or is there more?

And the answer I gave her was this:

Tracked you down from a post in a community, but at 3am and no sleep I can't remember what community it was.
Anyway, I think it's about personal declaration. I'm bi, because I say I am. I think a lot about it is the sexual aspect, being able to look at someone and think, "I'd tap that". But there's also the relationship aspect. Would you want to settle down and have a family with that person? Because, sexually speaking, I'm heterosexual. I look at a male and think, "I'd hit that." But when it comes to making a family with someone.....I don't care either way. I'm in love, the sparkly gooey hearts-for-eyes, see-the-name-on-caller-ID-and-go-OMG kind of love with a girl that makes the sun rise in the morning and the clouds go away just because she tells them to. So I'm bi. And maybe, yeah, it'd be more interesting in bed if there was a penis involved, but....when I think about her sexually......I want to worship her body and make her scream and moan my name, just because she's the entire focus of my world, and I want to be the focus of her world for a little bit. But that's the difference between sex and making love.

And now you know a whoooole lot about a total stranger. LOL
Anyway, I'm crossposting your question to my journal, because it's a really, really interesting thought.

And this is the crosspost right here. I'd like to open it up for discussion to my friends-list and see what you guys think.

Updatey Thingie

2007-03-27T02:58:17Z

So, Mina and I are making our attempts at patching things up. Here's to hoping things work out there.

And in other news, I have uploaded a whoooole bunch of new icons!!

And after this....a real update.

2007-03-27T01:32:29Z

LJ House Party by fayray

Username

The DJ

prettygothgirl

The Drunk

bunnychandmg

The Hottie

vergilsparda666

The Wallflower

ellechar

The Player

regret_no_sins

The Gambler

reno_chan

The Horny One

parting_wings

The Crasher

ar_wahan

The Love Interest

czerka

How many people got laid

Chances the party will be a sucess

11%

Angel Style by greymentality

Name/Username

First Impression from Others

Others cower in your grandeur

Your Core

You truly want to be human. You sap.

Potential to Stray from the Light

90%

Your Weakness

You were a fallen angel. Climbing up again.

Your Strength

You ride Binky, the Pale horse. :)

Your Wings

Filmy and flowing. Like gauze.

Your Focus

Faith

Your Suicide by drunkaholic

Name

Age

When You

July 24, 2010

Why You Will Do It

You were in debt

Where You Will Do It

In a dark alley

How You Will Do It

A gun to the head

Percent Of People You Know That Will Care

43%

When you will go CRAZY and Homicidal! by oddchildofmars

Username

Age

When you went crazy

September 13, 2013

How many you killed

71,690

Your most famous victim

Hillary Duff

Weapon of Choice

A Fire Poker

Why your killing spree ends

You were electrocuted when cleaning the toilet

Your Crazy Meter

35%

findmagicorange @ 2007-03-26T21:30:00

2007-03-27T01:32:00Z

If you were on South Park, what would you look like and who would your friends be? (for girls) by vexedfusion

Username

You are a WHORE!

Dun dun dun, this is you...

Percentage of people who like this character..

48%

The Jew

regret_no_sins

The Fat One

fantasie_dminor

The Lover

bunnychandmg

The Poor One

burakki_ingoe

The Gay Teacher

czerka

Kyle's Bitchy Mom

achaknimu

Go here if you are a guy

South Park character memegen for guys

All imgs made here....

The Southpark Character Site

Love like it's LJ by jain_child

Username

Take your pick:

Your rock-steady love

esto_perpetua_x

You think is hot

achaknimu

You get the money while pretending to love

ar_wahan

How much $?

$589,607

Your current boy/girlfriend

vergilsparda666

...who cheats on you with...

prettygothgirl

The jealous best friend

dieinahole

The weird kid in math who wants you in bed

peachy_momo

How much love you got?

19%

It continues!!

2007-03-27T01:30:48Z

What makes you attractive? by eurudite

Name:

Gender:

Age:

Your Eyes:

74%

Your Smile:

65%

Your Body:

83%

Your Wit:

90%

Your Charm:

80%

Your Personality:

73%

What first attracts them:

You are an excellent flirt...practice much? ;)

Why they stay:

You love with great passion and zeal.

What pushes them away:

You are very stubborn.

Generate your Anime Character! by ryiu

Name

hair...

long ponytail

clothing...

trench coat, dark shirt & pants with a few belts

eyes...

they change color a lot

special trait...

demon wings

special ability...

you can regenerate

weapon...

a sub-machine gun

personality...

out for revenge

sidekick...

a little demon

purpose...

you're out to help the weak and fight the wicked

you are good by...

19%

Amazing MEME Spam!!!

2007-03-27T01:29:37Z

If You Ruled the Land . . . by wackyweasel

Your first name:

How you gained your rule:

Your title is:

The Boss

Your symbol is:

a red dragon - fiery and hot, like you!

You rule from:

a towering, well, tower

At your side is:

your trained cheetah, Speedy - go fetch me a soda!

Your enforcers, troops, and guards are all:

colorful dragons

Your most popular law is:

Harry Potter named national hero; he's done so much!

Your least popular law is:

Regulation of a national favorite color

Your worst enemy is:

your court jester's awful nun joke

Your popularity rating is:

100%

Your chance of being overthrown is:

88%

If YOU Ruled the world...(With an Iron Fist) by KronIKmasTER

your name

your Title

The Ayatollah of Rock and Rollah

Damage on your way to world Domination

$804,906,338,749

You seize power on

April 12, 2138

Your Battle Cry

Avenge my Clitoris!

Your slaves call you

An Asshole

Favorite Torture Device

One...Little...peice...of...String

Your approval Rating

53%

years your Reign of terror lasts

Inoocents slain per year

38,708,620

Which Lord of the Rings character could you beat in a fight? by purplesparkler

Your name

Your age

You could defeat

Galadriel

Armed with

A bow and arrow

But be careful of

Merry Brandybuck

Likely battlecry

Banzai!

Chance of success

74%

Amount won if a prize fight

$51,915,954,369,446,166

Your Homicidal Rampage! by crash_and_burn

Your name:

Weapon of Choice:

Agent Orange

Your Favorite Target:

Penguins

Your Kill Count:

365,439,632

Your Battle Cry:

"My kidneys tingle with pleasure!"

Years You Spend in Jail:

How Much Money In Damages You Cause:

$146,014,354,744,782

Your Homocidal Insanity Level:

88%

Character Information

2007-03-26T06:46:10Z

I've had this rolling around in my head for some time, and even posted to a community for some input. And so, after tinkering with it semi-constantly.... I have a character sheet, and four character pieces, as recommended by triospleasure. The character pieces are written purely for the sake of fleshing out Elena's character and reactions in different circumstances, therefore they're not entire fics, rather just a short scene in the specified genre.

Also, thanks to dieinahole and other members of rp_discuss for help with fleshing out the description itself. This is a....constant work in progress, but I'm slowly but surely perfecting it.

[Name] Elena Lanister
[Fandom] FF7
[Age] 19
[Hair] Blonde bob-cut
[Eyes] Chocolate brown, large for her face
[Height] 5'0"
[Weight] 110 lbs

[Weapon] Elena is the materia specialist in the Turks, so her primary weapon is materia. Without that, she's pretty much a sitting duck. She does have a small handgun, though only carries one spare clip of ammunition. Her favorite weapon is something similar to this, though she rarely has occasion to use it and it sits in the ShinRa armory. She is an amazing shot with both. See history for further explaination of her fascination with firearms.

[Other] Elena makes assumptions about people. Quickly. And will act on them. Also, she's not so good at putting together pieces to form the bigger picture. As in she could walk into an apartment that smelled of cigarette smoke, see the ashtray on the table, and still be surprised when the person that lives there pulls out a pack and lights up. Things need to be explained to her very thoroughly for her to understand.

[Personality] Elena has always taken it on herself to arrange for the health and welfare of her sempais, even if they don't need it and even resent it. She is the most sociable of all the Turks, and will take on a maternal role if given the chance. She is happiest giving her free time and energy to make sure that everyone is taken care of and following procedure. Highly cooperative, she is skilled in maintaining teamwork among the Turks, and is also tireless in her attention to most details, though paying attention and being GOOD AT are two very, very different things.

She is extremely sensitive to the feelings of those she cares about, and what she perceives to be their feelings even if her perception is inaccurate. This leaves her rather self-conscious, that is, highly sensitive to what others think of her; especially Tseng and Reno. Because of this, she can be crushed by personal criticism. She needs ample appreciation both for herself personally and for the service she gives to others. This is not to say that she is afraid to express her own emotional reactions, quite the opposite. She is quick to like and dislike-and doesn't mind saying so-tending to put on a pedestal whatever or whoever she admires, and to come down hard on those people and issues she doesn't care for.

She has a pleasant, outgoing personality, and is visibly-and honestly-concerned with her friends' welfare, This same characteristic causes her to be good in many people-to-people assignments. As a Turk, she is able to approach others with ease and confidence, and seemingly aware of what everyone's been doing, making her better for espionage and reconnaissance missions than fights. Her only problem is that she talks a bit overly much and can blow her cover in that vein.

She never causes problems amongst the Turks; on the contrary, she is unmatched in her devotion to ShinRa, and shows amazing personal loyalty to her sempais (even though she'd never admit the loyalty she has to Reno).

The most important thing about Elena is that, despite how bloody her past was and her current job is, she has not become jaded by either. She is of the world, but not soiled by it. No matter how much blood covers her hands, she's still ready to wipe them off and give her friends a great big smile. As long as she doesn't think about the bad things that she's done as a Turk, she doesn't feel any remorse for it. It's her job, she does it to the best of her ability, and she takes pride in it. And if that means taking pride in having put a bullet in someone's skull, then she takes pride in having put it there in exactly one shot. The problem arises when she =does= stop and think about it. That can leave her paralyzed as she has to sort through each and every moral qualm from her father's death onwards (See History). Hence, she much prefers to wipe her hands, bottle things away, and distract herself. She knows that getting caught up in her past can be a problem, both for her own mental stability, and for those around her if it happens at an inopportune time, so she is frightened of being confronted by it.

She loves to make new friends, though her personality makes this somewhat difficult, because she is quick to judge someone. Not necessarily in the negative sense, but she takes the idea of 'first impressions' to an unhealthy extreme. And when reality finally catches up and she has to re-evaluate her idea of someone, it swings violently. Where a normal person would lose a minor amount of respect for someone previously respected and liked after a given situation, Elena jumps from one pole to the other. She would lose all respect for someone and switch to hating them entirely. And it would swing back and forth with each encounter with them until it finally stabilized.

She can be quite immature at times, her judgmental mentality is just one example of that. But overall, she's an average, cheerful young woman.

Her motivation comes from wanting to impress Tseng. She does not understand why he gave her the chance to join the Turks, and wants to make sure he never regrets it (See History). She knows that he is a stickler for formalities and paperwork, so she attempts to do the same. Many times, however, this has made for all-nighters and a cranky disposition in the morning. She tries not to let that show.

Her biggest fears are of losing her friends, or letting them down. Also, she is afraid to be alone. Not in the sense that it's normal to be alone, but the thought of not -having- friends makes her somewhat weak. Hence she's never told Reno to his face that calling her rookie hurts so much.

[History] Elena's history was written before BC came out. Not BC compatible.

Elena's father was an executive at ShinRa company, with just enough power and prestige that nobody questioned how his wife and elder daughter would constantly "fall down the stairs" or "walk into the door frame". Read that he was abusive. And a drunk to boot. Thankfully, he never beat Elena, though not out of any sort of mercy. Elena was small as a child, and one hit to her tiny body could have killed her. He could cover bruises and abuse, but even drunk he knew the consequences of murder.

Elena's elder sister, Natasha, was killed when she was fourteen. Her father had pushed her down the stairs, and she struck her head. With only one child left to look after, Elena's mother took her and fled to the slums to hide. Elena was nine. Shortly before her tenth birthday, her father tracked them down. Their having left had snapped the restraints he'd put on himself, he was no longer afraid of the penalty of killing them. He murdered her mother, but when he turned for Elena, the wide eyed child pulled her mother's gun. She shot him at point blank range. From then on, she was alone, save her mother's gun. It was her constant companion, even though she was soon out of ammunition for it. It was the beginning of her love of weaponry. By eleven, she had learned to steal, and she was quite good at it. By fourteen, she had learned the art of breaking into medical supply warehouses and reselling drugs on the black market. Her street name was "Angelfingers".

And then she got caught. Not by the police, thankfully, or her tale would end in prison. But by Tseng, the leader of the Turks. He saw potential in the then seventeen year old girl, and gave her a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, loaded though it was. Join the Turks, or stay put while he called the authorities. She chose to join the Turks. It still occasionally boggles her mind that the choice was even given, and is part of the reason she's so fiercely loyal to him and to ShinRa.

She went through one year of intensive Turk training, and when Reno was injured in the battle with AVALANCHE during the Plate Incident, she was given her promotion from junior Turk to Turk. This was perhaps a bit premature, as she's still not as capable as her sempais. Though this could also be from lack of experience. She continues to learn and grow every day, showing that it's not a lack of competence or intelligence, more a lack of training and/or experience.

Reno heckled her constantly once he was recovered and he realized he'd already been 'replaced'. While most of that died down after they had a chance to get used to each other, and he even rescued her when she was kidnapped in Wutai, he still calls her 'rookie' and it hurts every time he says it.

[Adventure] She could hear Reno-sempai in her mind. She could hear him, she could see him, she could almost feel his breath on her neck as he spoke to her.

"Don't blow it, Rookie, we're all countin' on y'."

She gritted her teeth and growled at the phantom of her superior. He was not going to heckle her while she was working with explosives. And he certainly was NOT going to heckle her inside of her own head while he was unconscious not ten feet away.

"Damn it, sempai, shut up and let me work."

The dream-Reno fizzled away, leaving her with the detonator, and a forty five second countdown to the end of her career. Or the biggest commendation she'd ever have.

Reno's voice came to her again.

"You get m' ass blown off an m' gonna strangle y'..."

Her brow furrowed in frustration as she fought him off.

"Unless you're going to tell me which wire to cut...stay out of my head!"

Her hand tightened around the pliers as she spoke, neatly snipping the wire she'd selected. She pressed her eyes shut and took a deep breath, albeit a bit belatedly, and not that it would have helped anyway.

After a moment, she let the breath out and looked at the timer. Frozen at twenty seconds. She let out a silent prayer of thanks, and went to Reno's side to cast cure on him until he could at least halfway support his weight. There was no way her five foot frame could carry him.

[Crossover] Elena sat up at the staff table, wondering why she was supposed to teach these kids how to use materia when they could cast spells easily with those sticks of theirs. Wands. Right. Wands. Well...it didn't really matter, now did it? The old man was talking, and he was ever so nonsensical. Was it against some law of their off-the-wall society for anyone to make sense in public? So far it had just been a parade of fancy words and other bullshit. Ah well, Tseng had told her to take the job. She could get information on their surroundings easily enough from her position in the school, and perhaps get a few of the other teachers to help them figure out how to get home.

Finally, Dumbledore waved his hands, and food appeared. She jumped, then stared at it, then very, very hesitatingly prodded it with her fork. Seemed solid enough. She began to eat. Dinner had seemed to have just begun when all of the students broke off and retreated to their dormitories. She set her fork down and retreated to her own rooms. It was odd, not sharing a room with one of her sempai's, but she understood why they had to be separated. Rufus and Tseng were in London trying to figure out where London was in relation to Midgar, and Reno and Rude were there to protect Rufus.

The next morning, she ate quickly and left for the classroom she'd been given. Unlike the other teachers there, she couldn't wave a wand and have the chalk write as she talked. Instead, she'd have to write everything out before the lesson. Gods but she never would have taken this job if Tseng hadn't told her how important it was.

[Crack!Fic] Tseng had given her a mission. A very, very important mission. She was supposed to give a politician a good old fashioned reminder of who had put him in office, without actually hurting him. Or at least not hurting him badly.

She had to plan this carefully, since she didn't have Rude's intimidating size or Reno's smooth-yet-threatening mouth. No, really her only great skills were guns and materia. And there really wasn't a materia that would scare without hurting. So she was going with guns.

She had her baby carefully perched on the roof, and she was laying down beside it. It was the most beautiful gun, really. The entire thing was in shades of grey, not that it truly mattered. The most beautiful thing about it was how flexible it was, how she could re-tool the detachable magazine so easily to suit this purpose.

Yes, the politician would get the scare of his life, he'd never forget that he owed ShinRa. She carefully took aim, released the safety, and.....her cellphone rang. It was a parade, no one would hear it over the crowd below. That and she was nearly a mile away. Ahh, how powerful her baby was that she could do this.

She flipped open the slim phone, and answered easily. "This is Elena..."

The cool voice on the other end was that of her superior, Tseng. "Elena.....I noticed your favourite sniper rifle is missing from the armoury.....you did see the line in the order where you were not to harm him?"

She smiled. He was underestimating her. He'd be impressed, then. "I am aware, sir. He will not be harmed. But I need to go or I'll miss my shot."

So he'd be angry at her for hanging up on him. Well...she couldn't really help that. She'd spoken the truth. She lay down beside her gun and once again took aim. Her hand moved to the safety next, purely out of habit. Finding it already ready, her fingers moved down to the trigger. She took in a breath, and pulled the trigger.

Down in the politician's car, pandemonium exploded. Her aim had been right and true, he'd been struck in the chest. With a red paintball. Mission accomplished, she began taking apart her gun to pack up and report in.

[Fluff] It had been a rough mission. In fact, it had been awful. And despite her best attempts at consoling herself, she just.....couldn't put it out of her mind. She'd never killed an innocent before. Every other time, she'd been able to write it off as doing her job, as just part of the mission. Not this time.

Well....it had -partly- been part of the mission. Standard kidnap/capture, interrogate, terminate. Their target had been innocent as well, but not even he preyed on her mind as much as the accident. She'd gone in with Rude, and a tranq dart instead of a gun. When their target had had his four year old daughter on his lap, Rude had emptied out part of a dart to a safe dose for the child, and passed it to her.

Her aim had been true, as always. She struck the girl in the neck, and the child had dropped unconcious just as her father had. They went in, and Rude picked up the man. But something was wrong. Very wrong. She took the child's pulse. Nothing.

She never would know what happened. Maybe Rude had miscalculated, maybe the girl had a medical condition. Did it matter? She'd killed a four year old child.

First, she'd tried taking a bubblebath when she'd gotten home. But after staying in the tub until the water was cold and her skin was pruny, she still hadn't gotten the image of the crumpled child out of her mind. Finally, she'd gotten out and pulled on her pajamas.

She retreated to her room and laid down on the bed, easily snuggling around the large stuffed rabbit there. She smiled softly, though it was a badly flawed mask.

"Hey, mister bunny.....I'm really sad tonight...."

The sewn features and button eyes held no response for her, but she cuddled closer anyway.

"Yeah, I know...you're quieter than Rude-sempai. But you listen really well." She looked up at the impassive face. "Am I a bad person?"

She nodded when there was no response. "I know I take good care of you, but...that doesn't change what happened today...."

She continued to talk to her stuffed rabbit until she finally fell asleep. Only then, without the restraints of wakefulness, did she cry.

The girl was buried several days later. Long after the funeral service did the solemn ShinRa car pull up. Elena crept out, and placed the toy on the girl's grave.

Yup, it's springtime.

2007-03-24T22:21:01Z

I just saw two squirrels fucking. You go, little guys!

Guess what, jackass?

2007-03-22T09:03:16Z

If we're going to play the "My definition of 'bad rp'er' is different from yours therefore I can flame you" game, then try this one on for size. You? Are a jackass. And I don't care WHAT your definition of jackass is.

And so help me GOD if anyone from the f-list would like to make comments about "what if it's a favourable definition?"........I warn you all now that I am NOT in a good mood.

Final Fantasy 7 Mary Sue Generator by Kate
Username
Enters the story by...	Finding out Marlene is their long lost sibling!
Hair is....	Like flowing silk!
Eyes are...	Silver!
Weapon is....	A Shuriken like Yuffie's! Only Bigger!!
Special...	Has an inner demon of darkness!
Falls in love with...	Marlene
This character falls in love with them...	Cait Sith
Has sex with...	Professor Hojo
Dedicate your fiction to...	captive_souls

What Makeup Are You? by stile
Name
Age
You in one word
Favorite color
You are
You cost	$83
Brand	Ulta Cosmetics

Be An Anime Character by mangacatgirl
Character Name
Eyes	Purple
Hair	Long Blue Wispy Hair
Fashion Style	School Uniform
Attitude	Confused
Role	Jpop/Jrock Artist

If LJ Were a Bar by Karen_Walker
Username
Bartender	czerka
Bouncer	fantasie_dminor
Dancing Badly	dollyday
Playing Pool	m_crowley
Playing Darts	burakki_ingoe
Singing Karaoke	esto_perpetua_x
Got in with a Fake ID	darktower86
Guy with a Mullet	slinkylynx
Too Drunk to Stand	achaknimu
Hitting on Everyone	abused_petals
Hot Chick	dieinahole

What do YOUR livejournal friends think of you? by broadwayrl
username
favourite color
sex
is only your friend because you told them to be	slinkylynx
fantasizes about your feet	l0vevampire
wants you dead	lunarennui
thinks your moms HOTT STUFF	m_crowley
wishes they were closer to you	elvaron
writes songs about you	triospleasure
loves you very much	lostandfoundbjd
misses you	theidolhands
wishes they knew you better	achaknimu

What kind of Final Fantasy Character would I be? by TheBlueParadox
Your Name/Handle
Your Hair Style	Short Conservative Black
Your Clothing Style	Loose Clothing/Lots of Jewelry
Your Weapon of Choice	Oversized Throwing Star
Your Mission	To Save the Love of my Life!
Your Role in the Fantasy	Captain of the Group

What female anime character do you look like? by RoseOfBlackFlame
Name:
Clothes:
Personality:
Age:
What you look like:
What you want:	Solitude

wut grl chinese singer r u g0nna look lyk wen u gr0w up?[grlz onli] by twinzluvagrl
name
gender
birthday
ur idol
wut iz ur religion
fav color
this is u!

What Kingdom Hearts Character are you? by Tenchi856
Name
Age
Magic
Your Road
You Are

What would you look like as an Anime Charecter? (MODIFIED!) by tobyspit
Name:
Gender, Age, and Species:	Female; 789 ; Halfbreed (Demon/Vampire)
Walk of Life:	Druid
Hair Style:	Tall and Spikey
Eyes Type and Color:	Sad, Sky Blue
Clothing:	Red trenchcoat, big boots.
Weapons and Accessories:	Spiked Gloves, Rasta necklaces and bracelets
Memerable Quote:	"Toast..well...that and girls."

What happens when you try to be Japanese? by hideto
Your Name
Your Age
Your Japanese Name	Usagi (Rabbit)
Your New Style	Ganguro Gal! AHHH!
Your Favourite Singer	Kana
You end up becoming..	A Jpop star!
Cash flow?	$697,229,143
You die..	From eating too much rice.

what alcohol are YOU??? by amberfinesse
name:
age:
sex:
favorite singer:
you are:

Harry Potter Meme of All Memes by Osaku
Name/Username
Age
Gender
House	Slytherin
Wand	Oak, 10", Veela Hair
Best Course	Defense Against the Dark Arts
Worst Course	Herbology
Pet	Rex cat
Patronus	Wolf
Quidditch Job	Keeper
Wizard Candy	Toothflossing Stringmints
Profession After School	Barkeep at the Leaky Cauldron

Random Comic Generator v2.0 by Delya
Nickname
Paper or plastic?
panel 1
panel 2
panel 3

You as an anime girl (with pics) by ayane isozaki
Name
Date of Birth
You

What would your Anime life be like? by hearthlight
Name:
Gender:
Your looks:	Lot's of leather.
Your best friend:	A sarcastic demon.
Your powers:	Energy blasts.
Your beloved:	A sexy vampire.
Your occupation:	Warrior for good.
Your ending:	The manga was better.

Your LJ Prison by redfrog021
Username
Favorite Deadly Sin
You are convicted of	Arson of a Trailer Park
And sentenced to	2 years
Warden	elvaron
Abusive redneck guard	abused_petals
Easy to bribe guard	mill_x_mei
Cellmate	ar_wahan
Wants to make you their bitch	_aionwatha_
Drops soap in the shower on purpose	bunnychandmg
Works in the laundry and smells people's undies	burakki_ingoe
Comes to see you for 'conjugal visits'	chibimars5

What Type Of Goddess Are You?::Female Anime Pics:: by angel_drifter
Name/Username:
Favorite Place:
Astrological Sign:
What You Look Like:
What Type Of Goddess Are You:	Goddess of the Sea

Everything you ever wanted to know.. about you! by anticaps
name
your color	orange - passion
your animal	coyote - trikster, thief
your instrument	saxaphone
your element	argon
your body part	ancles
your season	summer
your month	december

What would you look like as an anime character (over 100 different pics!)(modified!) by Jrockfangurl14
Name or Username
Age
Favorite Color
what you look like -
you are-	lovable
usual mood-	loud and noisy

Stripper Info (girls) by xyoursalwaysx
Name
Age
Stripper name	Angel
What youre best at	Giving lapdances
Amount you make per night	$403
Your customers are mostly	Lesbians
Do you have a boyfriend?	Nope.. single and lovin it!

What does your anime character look like? Girls Only! (Tons of pics!) by Shira_Hoshi
Name:
Age:
Fave Color:
Birthdate:
Your Character:
What you Desire:	Beauty

If you were an anime character what would you look like? (girls/beautiful pics! lots of outcomes!!!!!!!) by IxLovexInuYasha<3
Your/characters name
Age
Fav Color
Wat u look like:
Personality	Goth! You like being in the darkness and always dressed in black, maybe not. but your still goth and arent afraid to show it
How many battle you have fought:	3,381,078,481

What do you look like as an anime Character?(girls only! BEAUTIFUl Anime Pics) by anime_forever
Name
Age
Favourite Anime
Appearance
Weapon Of Choice	Spear
Role	Mage

The World Is MINE! by Demonac
Name:
You will conquer:	an Alternate Dimension (and banish the Alternate You back to this dump).
Your title will be:	Fuhrer
You will succeed by:	Simply walking in and declaring yourself leader after they all died of old age.
Your Enforcers will be:	The National Rifle Association (bow before the might of Charlton Heston!).
Your first act as ruler:	Ban Olsen Twins movies.
(What happened after)	Try "The World Was Yours! What Happened?" MEME to find out!

The World Was Yours! What Happened??? by Demonac
Name
Abused your power by	Pronouncing yourself God
Until	your own secret police
...	Invalidated your society's primary brainwashing tool by having the people read Nietzsche.
And adding insult to injury	Sales plummet for your motivational book: "Why I Rule and You Suck."
But now, after all that, you are	in a minimum security prison, sharing a cell with Martha Stewart.
(How did you conquer?)	Try "The World Is MINE!" MEME to find out!

Your Moulin Rouge Status: by pinkrobelover
Your Name:
Your deepest secret:	You shot the green fairy
The Bohemian Ideal You hold true to most is:	Truth
Your Job at the Moulin Rouge:	Snake charmer
What the customers think:	You aren't worth the price
Favorite Quote:	"Do the can can can!"

What Will Be Your Overly Melodramatic Death? by Celaeno
Name:
Gender:
Are you beautiful?
Your death:	In a bed of rose petals (red), clutching a dagger to your breast, moments before your beloved arrives. Poor baby.
Your parting words:	"I... never wanted another..."

What Sex Toy Are You? by brillig
Your name
Your favorite naughty word
You embody this sex toy	A Glass Dildo
Retail value of toy made from your genitals	$995
Your sekrit porn fetish	Masturbation Porn
How many times a day you masturbate	227

Your homicidal Rampage by tears_on_ice22
Name
Color
Place of your rampage	In The Middle of the mall
Number of kills	123
will you get caught??	No

How you really say "I love you." by lenatheraven
Name
...believe in true love?
Your hands say	I'm always here even if you have to reach for me.
Your eyes say	You're amazing.
Your hugs say	Nothing I desire compares with you.
Your kisses say	I almost can't believe you love me.
Your body says	Just curl up next to me.
Your heart says	Te amo.

Love by ruby mae
Your name
Your partner
You two are	One
Your meeting was by	Answered prayer
He/She is your	Protector
You are his/her	Sweetheart
Your love will	Last for all eternity

What do people really think about you? by Raven319
Name
Age
favorite song
Parents think	You're lazy
Strangers think	You're gay
Friends think	You need a fuck buddy

Get to know the REAL you by crash_and_burn
Your Name
You Are A:	Emo Boy/Girl
Your Favorite Band/Song	Bright Eyes - Bowl Of Oranges
You Like To Read:	Anything political
You Firmly Believe In:	Nose-picking
Everyone Thinks You Are:	The coolest person in history
You Were Conceived:	In your dad's pinto
You Will Marry:	An Italian plumber

Who will you be stuck with at end of time? by chi_a_baidh
Your name is
Your sex is
Your favorite color is
You are stuck there because	you can't die
For _____ years	19
With	Michael Moore. Click for pic.
He/She will think you are	strong
You will	repopulate the earth

You make me smile because... by xLiL PreP1x
Name...
Your Laugh ....	Makes me laugh
Your Smile ...	Is inspired
Your eyes ...	Shine with the sun
Your scent is....	Too cute
Your lips are...	Beautiful
Your hair ....	Is a goregous color
Your friendship ....	Is the greatest
Your hug ...	Makes me feel safe
Your kiss ...	Always makes me ask for more
Your love ....	Entrancing
You .....	are the best

Your Love Situation by Amberishjewel
Username?
Your Love Is...	Gentle
During Lovemaking You Act...	Like a volcano, hot & steamy
Your Partner Is...	Your support
Your Partner Has Said That You...	Are extrodinary
Your Love is Summed Up In A Quote.	"Love is bittersweet"

What Disney Princess Are You? by xsoimpossiblex
Name
Age
Favorite Color
Princess

Who were you in a past life? by Kat007
Name:
Birthdate:
Favorite Color:
Country:
You were most probably:	Adolf Hitler
If not then you were:	Elizabeth Short